One morning, shortly after the national COVID19 lockdown commenced, in March 2020, I awoke around 5.30am to go to the bathroom. I looked out of the window and thought to myself, everything looks normal, but everything is far from normal. With a heavy heart, I climbed back into bed with the intention of going to sleep, but sleep eluded me. I was distressed and could not settle.
I began to cry, pray and plead with God about this awful situation. I felt overwhelmed by the prospect of not seeing my son and grandchildren for several weeks, (or even months.) I was still restless when I heard a sound outside. It was the beautiful sound of birds cheerfully singing the dawn chorus. I thought, “It’s all right for them. They’re not worried about the virus”. Then I felt God whisper to my heart, “Trust Me as the birds do”. It was a very special moment.
My tears changed from ones of distress to ones where my heart was being touched by the Lord, as I sensed His love and His peace and the feeling of being held securely in the palm of His hand. All the feelings of distress went, and I was able to face the day with a renewed sense of hope and trust in God. He loves me completely and cares and understands exactly how I feel.
I would love to be able to say that, from that moment onwards, my trust in God has not wavered, but I would not be telling the truth. I have had good days, average days and bad days, but God has continued to uphold and strengthen me, as I look to Him, who alone is my help and my salvation. I have been reminded that I am saved by Christ alone, and His death on the cross paid the price for all my sin and sorrows. As I trust in Him, my salvation is secure, regardless of what is going on in the world.
One of my favourite scripture verses is Isaiah 41:10, which says, ‘So do not fear for I am with you; Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand’.
Prayer: Father God, thank You that You are completely trustworthy. You don’t ask me to understand everything, but You do ask me to trust You in everything. Today I come to You with all the anxieties and fears which are troubling me. I don’t know what the future holds, but I know You hold the future, and all Your plans are perfect. Amen.
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