LorraineThroughout my married life I have suffered from depression. I suppose I have had a poor self image since childhood. When I came into a relationship with the Lord, it was clear that the way I saw myself was quite different from the way He saw me and I had to change my self image. This is a difficult thing to do, but as I put myself in a place where I could receive ministry, gradually over the years, He has taken away the negativity and I see things differently. So many times I have been ministered to on Ellel courses and meetings. So many times the Lord has given me words through those praying for me. Ellel has been a tremendous place where I felt safe, so I could be open and trust those praying with me. However, I was aware that a certain phrase kept on returning to the front of my mind and had sufficient power to destroy my confidence. Whilst I was at the 'God of the breakthrough' conference earlier this year, at the meeting which Fiona Horrobin was leading, I knew this was an opportunity for my personal 'breakthrough'. So I went forward and told a gentleman about this problem and he prayed with me, and I felt the Lord say to me 'you will never again say those words to yourself.' When we were finishing he asked me to judge, on a scale of 1-10, how free I felt of the problem. What problem? I said! God said I would never say those words again so I won't even mention them in this testimony. God who began the good work within us will surely complete it.
- Centre: Ellel Grange, Lancashire
- Event: Conference