I arrived at Blairmore House discouraged and in need of answers. Loving God and trying to love the people, running different programmes in the church all amounted to me trying to meet everyone’s expectations and seemed to produce very little fruit. My sense of personal failure was great and I believed I had somehow let God down very badly.
Grateful for a time of rest, I cautiously started to wind down and allow the love that is at Blairmore to seep into me. Two brothers like fellow soldiers guided me through the mine field of rediscovering myself and my true identity. They gave me the opportunity to talk about things that I had done and that had happened to me without a moment of guilt or judgement in their eyes. I saw that my identity has been that I was a church leader who was not apparently succeeding. How magnificently God restored me to my true identity as a son of God, and in that I could never fail. I feel loved and accepted by my Father and free from all the condemning thoughts of failure. Everything now flows from my true identity. Hallelujah!