When my pastor suggested in 2008 that I think about doing the Modular Schools, I thought 'I'd like to do Modular B first - the topics look much more interesting and relevant to me than Modular A'! However, God, in His wisdom, had other ideas!
He knew that I could not have handled the topics faced on Modular B without the groundwork of Modular A. He also knew that I needed time slowly to take down the walls of defensiveness that I had built up round myself as a result of my experiences and slowly to let Him and others in.
Over the course of the next three years He gently did His work of healing in me. I know it is not yet complete - I still have buttons and they still get pressed! - but what He did during my time at Ellel was nothing short of miraculous.
Before I went to Ellel I did not know that God could heal 'on the inside' - I thought the way I was was just the way I was! But God did so much - healing the countless wounds of rejection that I'd received most of my life, healing my femininity that I'd largely rejected as a result of years of childhood sexual abuse, healing my identity and my perception of myself, healing the damage done to my spirit as a result of multiple traumas, restoring my creativity and getting me back in touch with the joy of doing things I enjoyed, healing my emotions and making my marriage a lot less stormy in the process!
I cannot thank God enough for all that He did in me through Ellel and I cannot thank all the team at Ellel Grange enough for opening their 'home' to me and making it a place of welcome, safety and healing. Thank you to you all, from the bottom of my heart!
- Centre: Ellel Grange, Lancashire
- Event: Modular School