I had the opportunity to go to an Ellel Healing Retreat in Calgary in June of 2005. It was there that I realized that there were spiritual roots to my problems that I was struggling with.
I came back to Ellel that following July for the first two weeks of a 4 week school and I was amazed at what God was showing me regarding my fear, anxiety and depression. He knew exactly what I needed as I also had the opportunity to receive ministry for new age and occult things that I had been involved in such as yoga and reiki. This was a start of removing the first of several layers and years of garbage that I had been carrying around with me.
Over the course of time, I continued to pursue God with my past hurts from childhood abuse and neglect. I have had to seek God's forgiveness, repent of inner vows, lies and judgments that I had made about myself and others. I have had to let go of ungodly soul ties, and renounce any generational sins or curses. Each of these steps brought me closer to the place where God really wanted me to be in the first place and I soon began to see myself as He sees me. The fears, anxiety and depression lifted over time as I dealt with the pain from my past.
Last year I went back for a week of school at the Ellel centre in Calgary. Again God caught me by surprise as I saw that I still had anger inside of me towards Him for allowing these things to happen in my life. I felt such peace overcome me as I let go of my pent up frustrations and guilt about being angry towards God. He forgave me and I now I am free to soar and continue to become the person He's designed me to be and do the things He has purposed and planned for me. I truly do not know where I'd be today if it wasn't for my Daddy God lifting me out of the darkness and into His loving arms!